So I’ve just made a video for my YouTube channel and the first thing I notice on rendering the video is how dark it looks, despite my having all the lights on in the room. We can deny it no longer, British people – winter is almost here in all her dark and frosty glory. While I love this time of year, it plays havoc with my emotions. The lack of light makes me lethargic and unenthusiastic. Having depression anyway is bad enough but winter makes it worse sometimes. I tend to spend the winter months working on myself, I tend to go into my shell a little bit and work on self-improvement and my witchy and Ovate work. It seems to be a natural time to retreat into oneself and become introspective.
So as I write this, I’m lying in the dark listening to music. Instrumental, no lyrics. I’ve done this for years, usually when I want to be alone with my thoughts, or when I want to relax. It makes things pop into my head though, aspects of myself that seem contradictory sometimes. I like my own company but I yearn to be with others.
In other news, I ordered a custom Book of Shadows, which is currently being made for me. I’m excited about it, very much. I’ve been focusing on the Craft a lot lately. Ovate work has taken a backseat for now but I know it’s the natural ebb and flow of the course in motion in my life.
I’d better get back to my meditation.