Well, it’s Sunday and usually on a Sunday I don’t do anything. I know how lazy and truly slovenly that sounds, but it’s the truth. 🙂 But today I got up and felt like being productive. I got up late, but as soon as I was up I started doing things. I tidied my workspace up around my computer, said a dedication to the Goddess and lit the candles on my altar. Since then I have been looking at some Pagan videos on YouTube, and working on my Book of Shadows.
I actually handmade the book myself about 2 years ago, and slowly but surely I am filling the pages. I prefer to have a separate Pagan journal, which I tie in with my experience of the Bardic course and also my rituals and workings. Today I am working on the big book that I made, and filling it with reference materials. There are lots of photos in there. I wish it was my own artwork, but unfortunately I cannot draw or paint particularly well. So instead I fill it with beautiful photos. Between the pictures is the reference works. Right now I am doing the Wheel of the Year. I’ve got some beautiful pictures for each festival and a short written explanation of what the festival celebrates. I plan to pass these books down to my children, and so I try to put as much of myself into them as possible and this is the reason I handmade the book. My essence is contained within the very materials.
I feel very connected today. I only have a few more gwersi left until I complete the Bardic grade, which I’m excited about. I’m looking forward to the next stage of my journey.
This might sound a bit strange, but I actively avoid making my resolutions on Jan 1st. This is simply because I used to do this without fail every year and come Jan 5th the resolution had already been broken (because I’m human) and I would beat myself up about it and be really depressed and blah, blah, blah…
No more. I figured the only way to break the vicious cycle was to take the Jan 1st pressure out of the equation. So I am making my resolution today, with a light touch and tolerance for my own foibles, because I KNOW without a doubt that I am strong enough to do this and do it almost effortlessly.
My resolution this year is to get my excess weight off and keep it off, for the last time. That on the surface seems like an almost insurmountable task, as I still have nearly 8 stones to lose. But you know what, I can do it. I can imagine myself at my ideal weight, and I want that for myself. I’ve never really felt sexy because I’ve never had the confidence to buy the clothes I really love and wear them with attitude. This year I’m going to do it or at least make serious headway into the amount I need to lose and reduce my weight significantly. I just have to re-integrate myself with new habits and re-learn the weight loss plan I have chosen – I’m going to do it with Weight Watchers.
I’ve already lost a stone (14lb) with the aid of my doctor and partly through WW as well. 8 to go. I’m also going to be making the blog known to my WW leader and if any of my readers would like to comment, maybe share your own weight loss experiences or just offer support then I would love to hear from you.
Here’s to a healthy, happy future! 🙂